Thursday, November 17, 2011

Down the Memory Lane !!!!!!

Going down the memory lane is not an everyday routine; it’s definitely not something which we all do every day. But I am sure, we do have some days where we do think about them, what we were years or should we say decade ago… (Guess most of us do!!!!)

I have a dedicated time for myself, the time that is for only for ME. This unwinding time, as we call it generally is listening to some of ghazals, (Jagjit Singh for sure) in the background and reading or sometimes just sitting in front of the IDIOT BOX n surfing through the channels and not to forget about the 3 largest country in the world “FACEBOOK “(it definitely has made me get closer to my lost buddies).

Today, I happen to find a friend and a colleague on face book and after exchanging the normal greets, talking about how we both have been all this years and where we have been … so on and so forth ….. We started talking about the good old days. The days when we were young, the life which was full of freedom, very little responsibilities or can say none actually!!!! . Those challenges to strive in life and achieve something, striving for that success in the career and most important the wait for those pay cheques at the end of the month (though the 4 digit ones) at the end of the month but mattered so much in those days... isn’t it!!!

This small conversation, did take me back into those yester years making me more nostalgic the whole day!!!!!

I have been missing my home … my friends and lot many things the whole day. My mind was wondering around those days when going for a movie did not need any planning, suiting at a coffee shop with friends for hours was like a ritual. When I started working, getting up at 4 o clock in the morning to join the shift at airport was never difficult; proving the point when needed was never difficult.

With the heart getting heavier, I was trying to actually think what I m sulking at? Trying to find answers, to what actually is bothering me the most, the career which came to n end at its pick? The financial freedom which I had at that time? The friends whom I miss and do not get chance to be with often? Or the life which was less of responsibility, fuss and more carefree..???

Questions are always easy!!! It’s the Answers which are difficult!!!!!

In midst of all these, I realize its afternoon already and time for my son to come home from school and hubby for lunch. Realization of present I guess!!!!
The moment, Tanush walked in the house, surprisingly the mind automatically was diverted to the present.

The sadness and the moments of the past though stayed with me during the day but realization of the fact was also there that you can never reverse the time. The one thing that you cannot do is to step back into the time, but yes what you can do is, think about that time and laugh, cry and nurture it!!!!!!!

At the end of the day as I again sit and watch the idiot box , I get the answer: “To get something in life you do have to give up few things, and I am proud mother and a lucky wife. I have no regrets of any kind today and am happy with WHAT I AM!!!! WHERE I AM!!!!

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